Hello friends, and welcome to my newly revamped blog! I am officially “relaunching” my blog on Monday, but I first want to update you all on my life. Some of you know me well, some of you haven’t heard from me in a while, and some of you have no idea who I am! Let me catch you all up.
If you have followed me on social media, you noticed back at the beginning of August I accepted a job as a medical scribe, then I essentially went MIA. Goodness gracious God has done a lot of work on my heart since then (and I promise there are posts to come with these revelations.) Soon after accepting the job as the scribe, I realized my heart wasn’t as interested in the medical community as I thought it was.
For one, God revealed to me that my heart was full of pride on the pursuit of becoming a medical doctor .I mean, A TON of pride. I liked the idea of the status of being a doctor. Yes, there are many opportunities to serve people as a doctor, but my heart wasn’t fully in it for the people. Do I want to serve people with my life? Absolutely. But, I discovered I was truly on this specific path for myself. God was simply gracious enough to reveal my heart to me in a way where instead of it feeling like the opportunity to become a doctor was taken away from me, I now had the opportunity to walk away from the path myself.
Also, I discovered medical procedures weren’t really my thing anymore. My first week into being a scribe, I realized (word for word), “Oh crap. I love getting to know people, but I have no interest in doing procedures on them.” Please, keep in mind that in high school and college I shadowed a few surgeons and loved every minute of it, but this recent experience made me realize I love learning about healthcare, not actually doing it. I FINALLY had the realization there must be other career opportunities out there that are serving and forming relationships with people that aren’t so hands on with their body and would still bring glory to God’s kingdom and joy to my heart.
Another reason I left pursuing medicine is because my life priorities changed. In short, being in my first year of marriage has wrecked my perception of life in a good way. I still have a strong tendency to be self-focused, but I now have the opportunity to focus on someone else besides myself. As a wife, I want to serve my husband and support him in his work opportunities (and he in turn supports me in mine). I actually find myself wanting to maintain our home and cultivate a place of comfort and rest for others. I never, I repeat, NEVER expected myself to be the person I am today. I had convinced myself I would be single for life, married to my career. Goodness has that changed. In a breakdown driving home from a late night/early morning scribe shift, I realized I didn’t want to spend the next decade of my life pursuing medical education when I could be part of creating a solid foundation for my marriage and future life goals.
Wrapping up, I need to give credit where credit is due. I am incredibly thankful to God for providing the past year of schooling to discover I didn’t truly want to be on the medical path. Without that opportunity I probably would have spent my life believing the opportunity to become a doctor was taken from me, but this time it was my choice. I didn’t deserve the past year God provided for me, yet He took care of me in more ways than I can name. He’s revealed to me even more yucky parts of my heart (cough cough PRIDE cough cough) yet has offered me endless grace and love.
I also want to take a moment to thank anyone who has been part of my pursuit of becoming a doctor. Thank you for the recommendation letters, counsel via text/phone call/ face to face, and shadowing opportunities. You have all helped me tremendously and aided in shining a light on parts of the profession I love and didn’t know about. You all are incredible and continue to inspire me.
Thank you for reading, and I look forward to sharing with you the ministry God is cultivating through me.
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PS if you were wondering, no, I am not a medical scribe anymore. I am now spending my days learning more about God, supporting my husband, homeschooling my dog (tehehe), building content for this blog, and dreaming big dreams.